Series of Unfortunate Events

Life is known to have its ups and downs. If so, then I must probably be at my lowest right now. A series of unfortunate events occured and my moral and concentration on life's daily chores have taken a serious blow, something I guess only time can heal. At times like these I cry out to God in pain and desperation and ask 'why Father?!'... but many a time, his reasons are always beyond my human understanding.

I prayed hard that night, made phone calls hoping to hear good news but to no avail. I prayed that if He couldn't return me what was lost, at least to take away the pain from me. I lied in bed that night, with an emotion pain I had never felt before, full of anger and frustration, and for that moment, I could understand how many have had lost their faith in God or religion so easily. But even so, I am thankful to the holy spirit and dear mother Mary for keeping me that night.

Surprisingly enough, yesterday's sermon during mass seemed to be directly targeted at me and my thoughts. Awe stucked as I listen hard, Fr John Lau shared about how God never fails to listen to our prayers, but sometimes (or maybe most of the time) He just doesnt respond to us the way we expect them to be, because eventually He knows what's best for us, not what we assume to be. Yes, faith. Not what of the human mind can easily comprehend, but what the soul may embrace. After all, as it's said, 'What father is there among you, who, if his son asks for a slice of bread, will offer him a stone? or if he asks for a fish, will instead of a fish offer him a snake?' (Luke 11:11)

Easier said than done, I am still trying hard to understand many things life has revealed, but often its nice to take a step back and enjoy life one bit at a time, knowing that there's always an angel watching your back for you.